34 Weeks

I am 34.5 weeks along with these 2 littlest Goodwins....needless to say I am ready for them to vacate their current living quarters so we can meet them and I can reclaim my body! That said, I had a dream last night that they arrived now and were in the NICU. The dream freaked me out so much that I am now truly motivated to make it beyond 36 weeks. Previously, I thought if I could get past 34 we were good, but just the thought of them being hooked up to machines really scares me.

The past few weeks have been getting increasingly hard. I must have a driver for anywhere I go, which is basically just the Dr's office, but all my Dr's are in San Francisco, so it's a juggling act figuring out who can drive me and when. I am able to do less and less every day and for the most part I'm just sitting with my feet up. I feel like I'm complaining too much, but this is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Especially since I haven't been able to play with Calan and go anywhere alone with him in months. I know that when the boys arrive it will be hard (especially the lack of sleep), but I am so looking forward to meeting them and being able to do simple things like drive to the store and walk up the stairs (without feeling like I'm going to break my water).

Calan has been so sweet to me lately and I know he doesn't know how is world is about to change, but I do think he's going to be a wonderful big brother! He says "baby" constantly and is very gentle to any friends' babies that we see.

I can't believe we're only a couple of weeks away from meeting the 2 new fellas! I can't wait!